There are many things in motherhood which we think "I'll never do that" and sure enough we find ourselves doing that exact thing. I will say, working in children's ministry so long, I had enough experience witnessing women say this and then going back on their word, that I at least learned not to utter the words aloud. However, this does not prevent me from thinking them in my head.
A few quiet "I'll nevers..."
...have the kid with the snot nose, crazy hair and stained shirt (hey...somedays I am happy they have a shirt on at all).
...let my kids use the couch as personal jungle gym (who was I kidding, it's June 17th and raining like crazy, use the couch the cushions, whatever kids, I am fresh out of rainy day activities).
...have a screamer (ummm, Amanda has perfected the scream. She gets in trouble for it, but it doesn't stop her and I am not sure how I ever thought I could just declare this as an "I'll never" as though I could remove the screaming vocal chords).
Eh...ya live ya learn. I am just glad that the majority of these remained in my head. I say majority, because well, there is one thing I have taken issue with. Shoes that have characters on them. I declared a ban on them long ago. Not going to happen on my watch.
We decided to go months ago and thought to ourselves, Bray will grow an inch by July, right? Wrong. Our little man has remained little. He is two inches short of the 40" rides. (He is a really tiny four year old). Anyway, we decided to try and find the chunkiest shoes we could. I went to so many stores and believe it or not, the fattest ones I could find with the highest insole were Disney Lightening McQueen. Oh and to top it all off...they light up. Blink Blink, baby.
My son is in heaven.
I am humbled.
Every time he runs and I see the blinking red lights drawing my eyes down to Lightening McQueen, I am reminded that never is a strong word.
And so I continue on my journey of motherhood wondering where we will go next. Because it's been a glorious road to walk, but often quite different from the one I thought I would take. I guess the brightside is, as long as Brayden walks with us, we have blinking lights to help guide the way.